I am truly trying to get my life back. This is literally the hardest thing ever! I stopped caring about how I looked after my failed relationship and after I became a mother…. I lost myself.
I’ve gained almost 100 pounds since I became pregnant with my first child and it was devastating to my self-esteem. In 10 months I went from 110 pounds to my current weight of 200 pounds. Throughout the past 8 years, I have completely lost my confidence, and I felt as bad as I looked. I am excited to say…THIS HAS COME TO AN END!
“You can have anything you want in life if you dress for it,” -legendary Hollywood costume designer Edith Head.
The first step I have taken to revamping myself is changing my appearance. I was frumpy as hell!!! I had to literally throw away about 98% of my clothes and shoes. I had clothes from 7 years ago (side eye), I looked at most of my clothes and really had to ask myself “Why Angelina Why”?!
Those oversized panties with the holes and bras that don’t even hold up 10% of my boobs…yeah those….. bye bye, they had to go too! I literally had underwear from my first pregnancy, 7 years ago! For years, I convinced myself that I didn’t have to money to look better or buy myself new things, but I was spending money on breakfast and lunch every day at work. I had to get my priorities in order!!!!
Story time: Disclaimer: This incident took place before I started working on the new me.
I woke up around 6 am one Saturday morning. The kids were still sleeping and their father was there; so I decided to get up and go to Home Depot. I wear my hair natural so like every morning, I woke up with an Afro. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and washed my face. After that, I went into my room and threw on a pair of black tights with a hole in the upper leg area and a black hoodie. I used my hands to put my hair into a low bun and threw on a hat. I was ready to head out until I looked at myself in the mirror. I literally cringed! I looked like a zombie from the walking dead (yes that bad). At that point, I realized that I needed to do better with myself. Not just that day…EVERYDAY!!! So, I went back into the bathroom to shower and wash my hair, thank God for the Wash and Go! I put on a cute romper that I purchased the day before, light makeup, earrings and a few splashes of perfume. I felt so much better about myself as I walked out of the door. It just so happened that I saw two people that I knew at Home Depot. I was so thankful that they didn’t see me the way I originally planned to walk out of the house.
THE CHANGE BEGUN!
To complete step 1, I took myself on a small shopping spree. I bought nice panties and bra sets, cute sandals, work clothes and “going out” clothes. I vowed to myself to never.. EVER walk out of my door looking less than the woman that I am. My confidence has gone up so much! I no longer walk with my head down because I am ashamed of the too small pants and old shirt that I threw on for work. Every week I treat myself to one item to build my wardrobe. It’s exciting, and my style is growing along with me! This is only the first step and I have a long way to go!!!! Hope you following me on my journey! Let’s discuss step 2 tomorrow!